Smallhouse Log full-content feed A full-content feed of updates to the Smallhouse Log. View the original post to add comments. http://log.3feetofftheedge.com Friday, last week of Summer Break <p>I've been reading a lot lately, and the most recent thing I read -I just finnished- was Maguire's <i>Confessions of an Ugly Stepsister</i>. It was a very compelling tale, and I think part of why it was so compelling is that I knew how it would end, and the tension among what I could expect given the story thus far, what I <em>wanted</em> to happen, and what I knew (or thought I knew) <em>must</em> happen grew as the story progressed and I grew to love the characters more and more. It was a very satisfying ending, in that the characters acted true to their character; everyone got what they wanted, or at least avoided what they could not abide; and the fairytale we all know was presented in total, note for note. Maguire realizes what should have been obvious to any cynic looking at the tale with fresh eyes, but never occurred to me: That a beautiful stranger entering a ball unescorted could not escape the attentions of a prince whether she wanted to or not, and that the uses princes have for beautiful young ladies lie predominantly in one specific area.</p> <p>Which served as a nice twist, but isn't really important to the story being told.</p> <p>But the aspect of the book that arrested me most is what I describe above, the same desperate tension that I adore in the Norse myths: We know how the story ends, and it doesn't end well for the heroes. Every action is either in service towards or defiance of that eventuality, but come it shall regardless.</p> <p>How many movies have employed this trope, of showing the climax first, or part of it, and building up to it the rest of the movie? Of course, they so often have a twist, or <i>Deus ex Machina</i>, or unreliable viewpoint, that let them weasel out of their terrible promises and give a neat resolution before the credits roll.</p> <p>I think that's part of the appeal, for me, of the <i>Terminator</i> franchise: No matter if the Connors and their allies delay it by years or decades, Skynet always awakens. A victory today doesn't solve the problem, it just kicks the can down the road... and quite possible under less capable feet, as likely to kick it back to the Connors as to kick it forward. Note also the fact that John Connor's father is Kyle Reece, sent back in time by John to protect his mother Sarah; which gives the whole story a cyclical feel, an inevitability that nevertheless leaves room for uncertainty, for hope.</p> <p>I've had a story kicking around my head for years, about Janus, the Latin god of beginnings and endings (and arcades). While it may seem odd to those that know me well, I who despise dualism in every arena, I have always been intrigued by this deity. Perhaps a part of me, the architecture enthusiast who loves arcades (or the videogame enthusiast who loved arcades in their heyday) felt a kinship or obeisance to this figure, the patron of change -in more ways than one, as he is also associated with coins, which plays nicely into the video arcade angle. And it occurs to me that perhaps this technique -of knowing the end before the beginning, and the tension that creates- is the perfect device for a story about a god of beginnings and endings.<p> <p>Not that I know how the story ends. Up to now it's been mostly a character study.</p> http://3feetofftheedge.com/sh/log/index.html?lpid=11252 http://3feetofftheedge.com/sh/log/index.html?lpid=11252 Tuesday, eighth week after Pentecost <p>I met a prophet yesterday, and I've been thinking about it ever since, which is what one ought to do after something like that, I suppose. It was very unsettling and I didn't enjoy it, but that also seems par for the course. I'm also not sure what he was trying to tell me, which, again.</p> <p>But the way these things go, if I recall correctly, is usually that one person gets the prophecy, another writes it down, and a third party reads and understands it (though sometimes too late?). I regret now that I didn't write it down immediately, but I wasn't ready. Who ever is, thought?</p> <p>The prophet asked me a lot of questions, but the one I remember best was the first one I wasn't able to answer. "If a man shall tempt you, what shall be your answer?" It sounds like the first half of a formulated question and response pair... very familiar, but I couldn't give the answer. What is the response to temptation? How do we answer it? I still don't know.</p> <p>As we travelled together, he asked me more questions, which I also couldn't answer, and which were less formulaic. He asked about the pain of a mother losing her child, about people being killed. I really wish I'd written more down right away afterwards. I don't know what I'm being called to do, but I feel the pull. Do I go out and seek? Do I trust that I will know the time for action when it comes?</p> <p>Can I really solve violence in Chicago? Even if I can't, don't I still have to try?</p> http://3feetofftheedge.com/sh/log/index.html?lpid=11251 http://3feetofftheedge.com/sh/log/index.html?lpid=11251 Friday, fourth week of Lent <p>Got a new job and it's going well. I have a reverse commute now, which is odd. But I think I found a pretty nice bike route between home and Oak Park.</p> <p>I'm just glad to be working again.</p> http://3feetofftheedge.com/sh/log/index.html?lpid=11250 http://3feetofftheedge.com/sh/log/index.html?lpid=11250 The day after the Feast of the Epiphany <p>When I was young, my dreams were things like: I'm being pursued through an infinite museum, but it's okay because <em>I can fly</em>.</p> <p>Now that I'm grown I have dreams like: My former best friend is in town for a professional development course, but when I manage to spend time with him around my own work schedule, we just stand in uncomfortable silence.</p> http://3feetofftheedge.com/sh/log/index.html?lpid=11249 http://3feetofftheedge.com/sh/log/index.html?lpid=11249 Friday <p>I'm typing this from mobile for the first time ever, so please forgive me any typos amassed during my midnight ramblings. Also remind me to make the new post page a <strong>lot</strong> more mobile-friendly.</p> <p>I feel like a vision has been crystallizing in my brain for years of my ideal videogame. It has critters, you give them tasks, they carry them out to the best of their abilities (if they feel like it). Examples:</p> <ul> <li><a href='http://bay12games.com/dwarves'>Dwarf Fortress</a></li> <li><a href='https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Princess_Maker_2'>Princess Maker 2</a></li> <li><a href='https://retora-games.itch.io/merchant'>Merchant</a></li> </ul> <p>And I've come up with my own variants, most prominently, or rather most robustly, one more in the Princess Maker vein where you conduct a whole orphanage, and one that's a Merchant / Dwarf Fortress hybrid designed for mobile use where you have seven rather hapless dwarves trying to survive stranded in the wilderness. Less prominently, or less full-fleshedly, one where you act as village hetman trying to pay the correct tribute to your feudal lord to keep them from descending on you with fire and sword, and one that, hrm, is basically <i>The Sims</i> (a game I possibly should have included in the list above) but as a roguelike... or possibly as a Zelda ][ clone sidescroller with some geometry shenanigans. And because I'm a sucker for this sort of thing, there's always a genetic simulation aspect as an optional add-on.</p> <p>That's four potential games, variations on an ideal: Critters. AI. Decision-making, delegation, and automation. The oldest has been knocking around for almost a decade, the youngest for only a year or two. Bees in my bonnet. What should I make first?</p> <p>The easiest? Probably <i>Seven Dwarves</i> or <i>Tribute</i>.</p> <p>The most exciting? <i>Seven Dwarves</i>, maybe. The most accessible? <i>Seven Dwarves</i>, again.</p> <p><i>Aside: Wow. I actually did not expect this exercise to be so helpful in picking a project. Let's continue.</i></p> <p>The most original? <i>Tribute</i>. The most ambitious? <i>Teacup</i> (working title for the <i>Sims</i> / roguelike / <i>Adventure of Link</i> ...thing). The most financially renumerative? Who even knows. Probably whichever one can be wrangled onto mobile.</p> <p>Food for thought.</p> http://3feetofftheedge.com/sh/log/index.html?lpid=11248 http://3feetofftheedge.com/sh/log/index.html?lpid=11248 Fourth Sunday after the Epiphany <p>Do you ever look at your blogging software, that you wrote yourself, and think, "How does it <em>work?</em>"</p> http://3feetofftheedge.com/sh/log/index.html?lpid=11247 http://3feetofftheedge.com/sh/log/index.html?lpid=11247 Thursday, Tenth Day of Christmas <p>I continue to have a lot to do.</p> <p>The house is stressing me out a little bit; we don't have a shower, and we haven't had one since before Christmas Eve. Our previously <em>very dependable</em> handyman has left us high and so very, very dry this past week or so. I cancelled my New Year's Eve plans to wait for him. He never showed. I'm either pissed or over it, and I'm really not sure which is the truth and which is the thing I'm just telling myself so I don't have to face the truth.</p> <p>We're planning a little girl's birthday party. Like, as I write this. We need to go to the bank, go to the doctor, and go get new phones.</p> <p>I just want to sit down and make the videogame of my dreams.</p> <p>But I'm so, so tired.</p> http://3feetofftheedge.com/sh/log/index.html?lpid=11246 http://3feetofftheedge.com/sh/log/index.html?lpid=11246